Today we’d like to introduce you to LVF LVX
Hi LVF, we’re thrilled to have a chance to learn your story today. So, before we get into specifics, maybe you can briefly walk us through how you got to where you are today?
I fell headfirst into a romance I wasn’t prepared for, revealing things about myself and my inner world only after the relationship’s door had been shut and bolted. I felt utterly confused, remorseful, and empty with an unquenchable desire to be love-bombed the way I had been at the very start, just before being thrown off the pedestal. For the first time in my life, despite various relationships prior, I felt loved, beautiful, and seen. It was all extremely short-lived, however, soon finding myself in another position I also hadn’t experienced—the push/pull dynamic—a hallmark feature of borderline states and narcissism. The back and forth, super high highs, and very low lows during the breakup were detrimental to me in so many ways as I was not equipped to process the rapid devaluation I was experiencing. I gave in to drugs and alcohol as a coping mechanism, not having learned any healthy ones.
I eventually looked for answers in Jungian psychoanalysis and the occult—specifically Thelema—choosing to better understand the motives behind my rebellious behaviors that led me to such a relationship in the first place. At the end of what felt like a two-year breakup, I began to view the relationship in a more objective light, diving deep into my psyche to unpack what I had just gone through. I realized that it wasn’t about a “loss of love” after all, but rather, a self initiation into some hard-hitting universal mysteries and facts of life.
It wasn’t until earlier this year that I remembered and found my old poems. I compare it to finding old, dusty tapes in a box that you’ve packed up and hidden away in an attic somewhere and had forgotten about for years. Taking them out one at a time and unraveling what each one holds is akin to letting go of old habits, attachments, and memories. The tapes we carry with us— the inner film we pull out and unconsciously drag— are manifested in ways we may not expect, but at the very least, become art for future generations to reflect on.
Would you say it’s been a smooth road, and if not what are some of the biggest challenges you’ve faced along the way?
I struggle with perfectionism, and there was a time when I questioned my ability to publish my book because I’d overanalyze and overthink everything to the most minute detail. If it weren’t for the most important person in my life, some close friends, and loyal fans, I might have never gone the distance, so I am forever grateful to these few special individuals. My biggest challenge, though, has been finding my own voice after years of suppression and learning to trust it once again. Building the courage to become vulnerable enough to put myself out there like some permanent museum piece has been completely out of my comfort zone and a very humbling experience for me.
Thanks – so what else should our readers know about your work and what you’re currently focused on?
I am a writer, mystic, and performance artist. My book, Tapes in Drag: Poetry & Remorse (available on Amazon) is a memoir-based poetry collection that reflects on this experience. Inspired by love-longing mythologies from Ovid’s Metamorphoses and Carl Jung’s study of the anima/animus, unraveling hidden truths of our deeply rooted fears, and the archetypes we associate with. My poetry taps into these concepts which hold a mirror to the human condition and is written as a series of initiations that invite my audience into my inner world– an esoteric labyrinth of insight and vulnerability.
My performance art compliments my poetry book and is expressed as a purging ritual, where I let go of old habits and ideas that no longer serve me. Symbolic in every aspect, I integrate religious themes, death/grief, psychology, and contemporary art into this performance, Tapes in Drag.
The poetry collection for this book was originally written during the last solar maximum 10 years ago. This is a time when the sun experiences heightened solar activity, affecting us in ways we aren’t even aware of. It is a time we get to experience life as both healer and disciplinarian, redeemer and judge. The solar maximum marks the beginning and end of a cycle allowing us to see ourselves under its light. This is relevant because the solar maximum is happening again today, making it a perfect opportunity to reflect on who we’ve been in the last decade and who we choose to become. What I experienced then was a dark night of the soul.
This time, I’ve immersed in the light, experiencing a new perspective, a rebirth, and a new upcoming poetry book. Make sure to follow me on Instagram for updates.
What matters most to you? Why?
For me, what matters most is to be a light in the darkness. We live in a narcissistic world where it’s going to take real effort to separate ourselves from its bondage and influence. So, I continuously choose healing— to know thyself— that means complete forgiveness, consistent self-reflection, and seeking the divine. Writing is how I share my story, face my fears, and resolve my trauma. I can only hope that it inspires others to join me.
Pricing:
- $16.99 on Amazon Tapes in Drag: Poetry & Remorse,
- $19.99 MallMagick.com, Tapes in Drag: Poetry & Remorse, Signed
- $3.99 2nd Edition E-book on Kindle
Contact Info:
- Website: https://MallMagick.com
- Instagram: https://instagram.com/lvf.lvx
- Facebook: https://facebook.com/lvflvxmallmagick
- Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@LVFLVX
- Other: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0D56LDFBB?&linkCode=ll1&tag=lvflvx-20&linkId=183d159a0ceb5e7e66054e640803dd59&language=en_US&ref_=as_li_ss_tl
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